Worst month of the year Award!!

December 2008... i would like to nominate this month as the worst month of the year... or infact the worst month of my whole life!! Nothing like this had happened to me b4... wow!! y its so great till its being nominated? so well, heres the story...

1st week
my lazyness took over me completely!! nov i already hav this lazyness but still, i can fight back but then, i almost take leave/mc every week!! my boss also starts to pissed off... if its not mc then ill b late... i dunno where goes my eagerness to go to work that i used to hav b4... its like puff~! gone!!

2nd week
same week, almost the same date (just a few days diff) like last year, i had an accident!! holy crap! had i been curse or wat? luckily i was going slow... n impressively my bike only had a few scrathes... the worst off, the guy just ran away when i was talking on the phone! mother fucker...

so this is his car... seems like nothing much right? but actually the left side bumper near the tire is actually cracked n almost fall down... n u know wat this guy actually did? he actually made a report!! stupid fucker! he ran n made a report! its his fault n he made a report!! wat? he think i cant make a report?? i got a letter from the ampang trafic police station...

3rd week
same like almost every day of december 2008, ill b wet! sounds nasty huh? yea rite!! its the rain! if its not on my way back home itll b on the way to da off... but if its same like other week y only mention it on the 3rd? coz!! dunno y this week i had to change my bike's bulb 3 times! nuff said...

4th week
yes this is the best week so far... so it was xmas... n happen to b my bday on the same date (u wont b able to c it in the ic tho) so ya, me n my fren went out n having fun... the night b4 xmas... yeay!! so wheres the so called worst month? here it is... since dat day, untill today, i had been having this stupid fever... today is the 4th day... i had never had a fever more than 1 day... but holy crap! its already the 4th day! n still no sign of getting better... n on friday (26th) i went to work... n u know for how long? 2 hours... then i went back home... since then i nvr go out of my house... last nite i went out 4 the 1st time coz im freakin hungry! but to dippointment, all i ate or drink taste like shit! nothing but bitter... my tounge cant worked well!! OMG! i dunno how long will this fever last b4 it cool off but i just cant take it anymore T_T

so now tell me y i shudnt nominate this supernatural month as the worst month of the year?? any objection? so there u hav it... the worst month of the year goes to~~~

DECEMBER!!!

yeay!!

sad... very sad... 2 more days till nu yer... hope everythings gonna b better... a lot better... a lot more better... then this... pls get rid of this bad luck b4 the year comes...

during these 4 days, dunno y, mayb coz im sick n im alone, my good memories comes haunting me again... theres sum1 use to take care of me when im sick, sum1 to buy me food when im hungry, make drinks when im thirsty, but yaa... memories will always b memories... mayb we just not meant to b together... no matter how many tears i drop isnt it... she cant cope with me n i just cant cope with her...

SHIT!!

Dude!!

Dude!! Whats happening to u?? Quit being lazy joe! y laa joe?? u r not like this b4? what make u bcome like this? its only 1 year!! how do u think u gonna survive like this? wake up wake up!!!

GET A GRAB OF URSELF!!

WoW!!

I can say im very proud of myself... hehehe... well this my latest invention (invention??)... thx to Sara San for asking me to the assg... btw this is my 1st attemp using gradient mesh... not to say dat i nvr knew bout it just that i nvr tried to do anything with it... coz actually i nvr knew the purpose of the bloody tool... ahahaha...

Took me quite sumtimes to finish it (not realy finish compare to the real pic - im not that patient n eager enuff to do all the small2 details ler) but WoW!! there u hav it!! i dun wanna say perfect but it good enuff for me as an amatuer... Ill let my nose bulk up for a while... ya laa nak arapkan org len puji mmg tak dapat laa kan... so puji diri sendri sudah... to hell with all that other ppl wanna say... like i care... aahahhahaha...

umm... thinking of the word "like i care" a lot of ppl sez im being egoistic... do i? am i being egoistic to b myself? at least thats wat i think i am now... but then i can see a lot of ppl being unease with me being myself... y??

I had my time giving my head to others... n its sux even tho i din realy care... now i stop to that n then im called this... EGO!!... not blaming them as i used to giv them heads... do as they like to see... so then thx! i would rather b hated then get my head steppen on anymore... Selfish? who cares!

Raye Raye Raye!!!~

Oyeah raye again!! n this year, i can say its the most happening of all the years b4... yeah! thats wat i feel about this year... n i hope the years to come will not b less than this year...
















Yup! i hav a BIG BIG family... if u think this is too many already, wait till i tell u this - we r still missing 5 ppl there... surprise? no need laa...





















the youngest in the family - Team Blue!!





















The Dudes - Team Green!!
















the married - Team Red!!





















The eldest - Team Orange?! (Maap laa ye kmie tadok gambo mg solo ^^)

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Well bab makan minom sumer malas nak citer... ramai da org bercerita... but buat pertama kalinyer tahun ni apart from our routine main course - ketupat - ader penambahan dalam menu utama raye... what? Lemang!! Not perfect but, ok lor~! First try maa...
















20 batang lemang, 150 biji ketupat, 2nd day finish... how laa all these ppl eat... not to tell nasi dagang in the 3rd day! but then, thats y this year is very happening! ^^

memories r always kept in heart n mind but its always good to share sometimes!!

Whatever Anything You Decide!

1."Whatever"

Men: What to have for dinner?
Women: Whatever.
Men: Why not we have steamboat?
Women: Don't want la, eat steamboat later got pimples on my face.
Men: Alright, why not have Si Chuan cuisine.
Women: Yesterday ate Si Chuan, today eat again?
Men: Hmm... I suggest we have seafood.
Women: Seafood no good la, later I got diarrhoea.
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: Whatever.

2. "Anything"

Men: So what should we do now?
Women: Anything.
Men: How about watching movie? Long time we didn't watch movie.
Women: Watching movie no good la, waste time only.
Men: How about we go bowling or do some exercise?
Women: Exercise in such hot day? You not feel tired meh?
Men: Then find a caf? and have drink.
Women: Drink coffee will affect my sleep.
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: Anything.

3. "You decide"

Men: Then we just go home lo.
Women: You decide.
Men: Let's take bus, I will accompany you.
Women: Bus is dirty and crowded. Don't want la.
Men: Ok, we will take taxi.
Women: Not worth it la. For such a short distance.
Men: Alright, then we walk lo. Take a slow walk.
Women: What to walk with empty stomach woh?
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: You decide.
Men: Let's have dinner first.
Women: Whatever.
Men: Eat What?
Women: Anything...
Men: I give up!

Dont Turn Around

Ace of Base

if you wanna leave
i won't beg you to stay
and if you gotta go darling
maybe it's better that way
i'm gonna be strong
i'm gonna do fine
don't worry about this heart of mine
just walk out that door
yea see if i care
go on and go now but
don't turn around
cause you're gonna see my heart breaking
don't turn around
i don't want you seeing me cry
just walk away
it's tearing me apart
that you're leaving
i'm letting you go
but i won't let you know
i won't miss your arms around me
holding me tight
if you ever think about me
just know that i'll be alright
i'm gonna be strong
i'm gonna do fine
don't worry about this heart of mine
i know i'll survive
sure i'll make it through
and i'll even learn to live without you
don't turn around
cause you're gonna see my heart breaking
don't turn around
i don't want you seeing me cry
just walk away
it's tearing me apart
that you're leaving
i'm letting you go
but i won't let you know
i wish i could scream out loud
that i love you
i wish i could say to you
don't go
as he walks away he feels the pain getting strong
people in your life they don't know what's going on
too proud to turn around he's gone
don't turn around
cause you're gonna see my heart breaking
don't turn around
i don't want you seeing me cry
just walk away
it's tearing me apart
that you're leaving
i'm letting you go
but i won't let you know

In love with u...

It's all because of you,
I'm feeling sad and blue
You went away,
Now my life is just a rainy day.
And I love you so,
How much you'll never know
You've gone away and left me lonely

Untouchable memories
Seem to keep haunting me
Now the love so true
That once served all my gray skies blue
But you disappeared (You disappeared)
Now my eyes are filled with tears (tears)
And I'm wishing you were here with me

Soaked with love, all my thoughts of you
Now that you're gone, I just don't know what to do

CHORUS
If only you were here
You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine,
Once again, you'll be mine oh mine
But in reality (reality)
You and I will never be (be)
'Cuz you took your love away from me

ooh ooh
Girl, I dunno what I did to make you leave me,
But what I do know, is that since you've been gone,
There's such an emptiness inside
Im wishing you'd come back to me

CHORUS
ohh, baby...
You took your love away from...me
OOHH

This is COOL!!

YOUR AGE BY EATING OUT

Don't tell me your age; you probably would tell a falsehood anyway-but
your waiter may know!


YOUR AGE BY DINER & RESTAURANT MATH
DON'T CHEAT BY SCROLLING DOWN FIRST!

It takes less than a minute. Work this out as you read .
Be sure you don't read the bottom until you've worked it out!
This is not one of those waste of time things, it's fun.


1. First of all, pick the number of times a week that you would like to
go out to eat. (more than once but less than 10)

2. Multiply this number by 2 (just to be bold)

3. Add 5

4. Multiply it by 50

5. ! If you have already had your birthday this year add 1758...

If you haven't, add 1757.

6. Now subtract the four digit year that you were born.

Scroll down >>>>>











You should have a three digit number

The first digit of this was your original number. (I.e., How many times
you want to go out to restaurants in a week.)


The next two numbers are



YOUR AGE ! ------ (Oh YES, it is!)


Cool eh?

♥If one day u feel like crying♥
♥Call me♥
♥I dont promise that i will make u laugh♥
♥But i can cry with u♥
♥If one day u want to run away♥
♥Dont be afraid to call me♥
♥I dont promise to ask u to stop♥
♥But i can run with u♥
♥If one day u dont want to listen to anyone♥
♥Call me♥
♥I promise to be there for u but also promise to remain quiet♥
♥But one day if u call♥
♥And there is no anwser♥
♥Come fast to see me♥
♥Perhaps i need you♥
♥Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk♥
♥Or how close you are♥
♥And send it to the person who sent it to you♥
♥Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will♥
♥Remember, everyone needs a friend,
dont ever leave the one u love for the one u like♥

sOrrY n tHx mA fRen...

Since the past few weeks, i keep realizing sumthing...
which i for soo long had forgotten the feeling...
its been too long for me to remember, which i think its realy realy a waste for my life...

the thing is...

its YOU! my frens!

im very sorry coz id been ignoring the all of u...
im sorry coz ive been too bz with my personal life to take note that u r always there for me...
im sorry coz i only b there looking for u when im lost in my world...
im sorry coz i din try to always b close to u...
i was too blind...
i was flying too high...
till i forgot where i belong... down there with u...
tho now i realize it, i still feel sorry...
coz i realize all this only after i fall...
after i fell sooo hard to the ground...
after i bleed my heart n my head...
after i am crushed into dust...

but even after all dat, u r still there...
always there to fill my sacred world...
always there keeping me alive...
to keep me safe from all the heartache...
from all the mind breaking problems...
n for that, a million thx to u...


dedicated to all my frens...

Way back into love

Wayback into love - hugh grant & cora corman

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

[Verse 2]
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.



i like this song n the movie... my boss n colleague does too ^^

- [ when i woke up sumday ] -

Its dark, its very dark
its painfull, cant just fix with any drugs
its cramp, i cant seem to breath
should i just stand n make my leave?

now that i have got the strength
y dun just i leave this forsaken land?
but i hear these words keep asking my mind
who would be there to hold ur hand?

should i leave or should i just stay
as i din know for how long that id been betrayed
but luckily im alive n able to say
i remember u paint my world to grey!

im not the kind of person who go for revenge
no matter how far its skid from my plan
nvr was i told to solve problems with my hand
but im still a normal human just like another man

to whom shud i pray begging for release
so sumday ill woke up in calm n peace
hope sumbody will come oh pretty please
b4 i turn myself into a beast



mmm... y it always b a heartache...

- [ bReaKiNg tHru!! ] -

looking to the bottom right of my monitor i saw the time... its already 1054... aih... another nite in the office... chasing the dateline.... this the 8th day staying back late in here... alone... with only the sound of 'my' processor's fan which is so fuking loud distracting all my consentration to my work... at least dats wat i feel when i was new here... but now, going thru my 3rd month in here, it seems normal to me...

DATELINE!! DATELINE!! DATELINE!!
im not afraid of it... im not chasing it too... but wats making me sick is my superslow, selfcentered, unwilling to take advises, thinking herself sooooo BIG, unthrustworthy, sweettalker, shit appraiser, half-minded editor... wanna know thw story? read till the end...

shes an indian (no wonder) whos age i dunno (dun wanna know pon) hired a bit later then myself... b4 she came in everything is just nice with suria (my officemate, doing all the management n distributing), edith (chinese gurl, editor for EQ - 2 comp in 1 office!) Anis (EQ's GD - a nice looking, heart breaking malay girl who look like sum1 i know from b4 -bole laa nak buat cuci mate kengkadang) and Mark (EQ owner)... but after she came in, at 1st things looking good... but as the dateline drawing near, she still with her stubbornness, keep delaying things... she thing this comp is hers? gimme a minute!!

its already been almost 1 month since the dateline is delayed, she still wan to delay it further n further!! crap!! things r ez for her but not for me... she only need to edit all those articles which can b done in 1 night (already been 1 month still more to b edited)... its not that im saying i cant do it... but who like to do things rushly? further more my job is to design those things!! it wont take hours to finish 30 advert n editorials, i take weeks!! in case u din know dat!!

this is the final week... thing still in mess... working late at nite... n last nite stayed up till the morning doing amendments for the clients... talking bout last nite, sumthing she sez make me wanna punch her in the face!! let me quote it...

"Din, just to let u know (the line she always have been using when telling me useless thing dat i already know- suppostly to encourage me to xpecting the worst - dey macha even tho i nvr work in publishing b4 doesnt mean i dont know thing u will encounter b4 the datelines!!), u dont hav to worry bout the dateline... i mean its not ur fault... its mine... im responsible of the dateline since i accept the project... dun worry... i already told ammu (my boss) u r very good worker n u can do things very fast... ammu want to meet the dateline... but the thing is we cant (we can laa stupid!! if u do ur work seriously!!)... i have a discussion with ammu last week... i told her we have to delay... u know last minute changes n all that (if u did ur work earlier it would b less last minutes!!), clients amendments, u know... we already start late (only u laa fakrianittulancao!!) so we have to delay... we start with a short of time... we already try our best (we??), it doesnt matter if the mag looks crappy... wats the use we push ourselves staying up late to the works then we got sick (there would b no staying up late if u do ur work earlier!! mahai!!)... it would be worst for the mag (like u care huh?)..." sez my editor...

talking so big like nothing happen... macha listen here!! i dun care if we need to work up late but i just dun like to make things in rush!! when i say stay up late i mean i can do my work slowly, no haste!! n less crack in my brain!!

dats is wat i went thru every day since 3 weeks ago... fire in my heart, luckily im the type of keep it all inside... u r so lucky damnit!!



make me wanna puke!! even u din tell i already know laa deyy!!