-[ liFe oF a gAMeR ]-

aku sungguh bosan... ari2 men game (its been since 5 years back! wow!!)... tapi kebelakangan semuanya rasa amat membosankan... lelebih lagi satu masalah baru telah timbul yang amaat membuatkan aku bengang dan terjerit2 lam bilik macam org giler... ape die?? warcraft3 aku buat hall!! yep im a DotA player in Blueserver...

sebelom semua neh terjadi everything is ok... baru2 neh jerk biler aku start nak men balik setelah agak lama meninggalkan arena DotA dan beralih kepada beberapa on9 game yg len... da bemacam2 cara aku buat... cek forums, godek2 war3 folder, tanyer member2 seangkatan, sumer tak dapat nak menyelesaikan masalah aku... ia amat menyedihkan aku...

ditambah pula dengan acc Utopia dan Earth:2025 kene delete ntah kenapa... dah seminggu tapi acc masih aktif menyebabkan aku taleh nak buat acc baru... org2 besar alliance sumer da berbunyi pasal tadak acc... oh tidak!! mungkin aku akan dipecat tidak lama lagik!!

mengapakah semua ini terjadi??? owh mungkin tuhan nak soh aku lebih matang dr duk men game jerk?? tapi mengapa sekarang?? wallahuaalam... tapi aku masih berharap semua masalah neh boleh diselesaikan secepat yg mungkin walopon aku da abeh idea nak buat macam mana...

iT tOucHeS mE... iT doEs!!

i found this when i was checking my frens list (bored n out of idea wat to do...) on ym which 5/6 of them r off9... guess all hav their own life now... btw please check it out... it might bring tears to u u know... but well im a bit taff... haha... not enuff to make me cry!! HMMMP! ^^

http://www.makeadifferencemovie.com/

tiMe GoeS bY...

another day another story passed by... for most ppl that is but not for me... im still here sitting in this dark room (purposely lite off ok!) n still looking n looking... ppl say im too choosy? hell im not... they just din giv me the opportunity (?) for me to show wat i am realy made of... arghhhhh!!! Search everywhere but still none... *sigh*

how long more i can survive? till when i can hold on like this? times drawing near... bit by bit im losing everything... how am i suppose to get out of the cold? god im tired of living like this... its been hell!! tho i know the true hell is lot worst! please help me!!!

pfff... this all my fault n now im begging?? yes! i am pathetic... i know, no need to tell me... its my fault to let it go... its my fault to think theres always another chance... its my fault to feel too confident about it... its my fault now im helpless... its my fault to be pathetic again... its my fault i got tainted by those... its my fault i got too addicted... its my fault i din realy WAKE UP!!!

WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!!

n now that i am what do i get?? too late to regret too much b upset... anybody who read this, pls pray for me... pls pray that i will find 1... pls pray that i can survive... may gob bless u...

im all fucked up!

hoW tImE pAss bY...

to my surprise n my dissappointment i just realize act lost hold most of my precious artifact (u kidding me?) well act "my piece of mind" that long time ago i wrote on my depressed, sadness, sorrows, n all sorts...

then i think back, i din just lost dat... but also a lot more other things (anything even ppl included!!) that r dearest to me... counting on the days, its act even passed back more than 2 or 3 years!! it just feels like yesterday... i know all of us also sumtimes felt this way... its the way human r...

huh! this sentimental thing scares the shit outta me!! damn im not going to die yet!! at least me marry n let my generation cont...!! eeehhh! like i can stop it if i were to die 2moro... *sigh*


well, keep breathing while u still can!!

yUp! i aM!!

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