to whom it may concern,

Happy Birthday.

Yes I do...

Some times ago i met with a fren of mine... its quite a long time since the last we met each other... we talk a lot... but the 1 question was ask n i cant answer my fren... the 1 question ive been questioning myself over n over again... the 1 question id kept lying to myself...

She ask, do u miss her?

i ofcos str8 away i would say no... but, i dun hav to tell coz everybody knows when im lying... the truth is yes, i do... i do miss her... unfortunately a lot...

Sometimes i would ride Merah, cruise around n end up at the places where our memories lies... but no matter how hard i tried to forget i guess it wont just go away n leaving me in peace... Keep torturing me...

i promised to sum1 dat i would 1 day wake up this dream but with each passing day, i dunno if id ever manage to... sum1 told me, i hav to b strong, i hav to accept dat its gone... n i know im not as strong as i tot i would... n yes, i lost... big time...

i know i lost... i know i hav to b strong... i know i hav to let it go... but mayb i just dun wan to admit, i dun wan to collect the strength, dun wan to let it go... i very appreciate them who support me, who kept encouraging me, but for now i guess i just wan to live this way...

mayb its better this way...