- [ bReaKiNg tHru!! ] -

looking to the bottom right of my monitor i saw the time... its already 1054... aih... another nite in the office... chasing the dateline.... this the 8th day staying back late in here... alone... with only the sound of 'my' processor's fan which is so fuking loud distracting all my consentration to my work... at least dats wat i feel when i was new here... but now, going thru my 3rd month in here, it seems normal to me...

DATELINE!! DATELINE!! DATELINE!!
im not afraid of it... im not chasing it too... but wats making me sick is my superslow, selfcentered, unwilling to take advises, thinking herself sooooo BIG, unthrustworthy, sweettalker, shit appraiser, half-minded editor... wanna know thw story? read till the end...

shes an indian (no wonder) whos age i dunno (dun wanna know pon) hired a bit later then myself... b4 she came in everything is just nice with suria (my officemate, doing all the management n distributing), edith (chinese gurl, editor for EQ - 2 comp in 1 office!) Anis (EQ's GD - a nice looking, heart breaking malay girl who look like sum1 i know from b4 -bole laa nak buat cuci mate kengkadang) and Mark (EQ owner)... but after she came in, at 1st things looking good... but as the dateline drawing near, she still with her stubbornness, keep delaying things... she thing this comp is hers? gimme a minute!!

its already been almost 1 month since the dateline is delayed, she still wan to delay it further n further!! crap!! things r ez for her but not for me... she only need to edit all those articles which can b done in 1 night (already been 1 month still more to b edited)... its not that im saying i cant do it... but who like to do things rushly? further more my job is to design those things!! it wont take hours to finish 30 advert n editorials, i take weeks!! in case u din know dat!!

this is the final week... thing still in mess... working late at nite... n last nite stayed up till the morning doing amendments for the clients... talking bout last nite, sumthing she sez make me wanna punch her in the face!! let me quote it...

"Din, just to let u know (the line she always have been using when telling me useless thing dat i already know- suppostly to encourage me to xpecting the worst - dey macha even tho i nvr work in publishing b4 doesnt mean i dont know thing u will encounter b4 the datelines!!), u dont hav to worry bout the dateline... i mean its not ur fault... its mine... im responsible of the dateline since i accept the project... dun worry... i already told ammu (my boss) u r very good worker n u can do things very fast... ammu want to meet the dateline... but the thing is we cant (we can laa stupid!! if u do ur work seriously!!)... i have a discussion with ammu last week... i told her we have to delay... u know last minute changes n all that (if u did ur work earlier it would b less last minutes!!), clients amendments, u know... we already start late (only u laa fakrianittulancao!!) so we have to delay... we start with a short of time... we already try our best (we??), it doesnt matter if the mag looks crappy... wats the use we push ourselves staying up late to the works then we got sick (there would b no staying up late if u do ur work earlier!! mahai!!)... it would be worst for the mag (like u care huh?)..." sez my editor...

talking so big like nothing happen... macha listen here!! i dun care if we need to work up late but i just dun like to make things in rush!! when i say stay up late i mean i can do my work slowly, no haste!! n less crack in my brain!!

dats is wat i went thru every day since 3 weeks ago... fire in my heart, luckily im the type of keep it all inside... u r so lucky damnit!!



make me wanna puke!! even u din tell i already know laa deyy!!