tiMe GoeS bY...

another day another story passed by... for most ppl that is but not for me... im still here sitting in this dark room (purposely lite off ok!) n still looking n looking... ppl say im too choosy? hell im not... they just din giv me the opportunity (?) for me to show wat i am realy made of... arghhhhh!!! Search everywhere but still none... *sigh*

how long more i can survive? till when i can hold on like this? times drawing near... bit by bit im losing everything... how am i suppose to get out of the cold? god im tired of living like this... its been hell!! tho i know the true hell is lot worst! please help me!!!

pfff... this all my fault n now im begging?? yes! i am pathetic... i know, no need to tell me... its my fault to let it go... its my fault to think theres always another chance... its my fault to feel too confident about it... its my fault now im helpless... its my fault to be pathetic again... its my fault i got tainted by those... its my fault i got too addicted... its my fault i din realy WAKE UP!!!

WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!! WAKE UP!!!

n now that i am what do i get?? too late to regret too much b upset... anybody who read this, pls pray for me... pls pray that i will find 1... pls pray that i can survive... may gob bless u...

im all fucked up!